Today i was able to go for the first time on my assigned pavilion at National Center for Mental health. I'm already on my 2nd month of rotation here and I'm sinking with tons of papers and documents!!! aaaaahhhhhh!!!! Lord, please grab my hand and pull me out of here!
Konting tiis na lang.....
Sorry if my blog nowadays is filled with exasperated expressions such as this because haaaaaaaaaaa................the pressure of internship. just this evening few minutes after arriving home, i immediately hit my PC, surfed a little (di talaga nawawala yan..it has become part of my system already!) then downloaded the documents my other groupmates have emailed. I complied all of it into one draft and emailed it back to my groupmate since her job is to print it out and submit it tomorrow morning at UST. Todo na 'to! About our thesis, thank God it's progressing but this week we're gonna focus more on our Decury (case presentation) on saturday. Karirin na daw ito sabi ng leader namin. haha!
Ngayon ko lang ulit naramdaman yung klase ng pagod like when i was at PCMC. yung feeling toxic talaga. siguro kasi in the morning i started to get myself used in being in Pavilion 5 - Chronic Female Unit. according to my clinical supervisor there, those patients are unmotivated (sabi ko pa nga, "ma'am dahil wala na po silang pag-asa kaya there're here na lang nilagay? sama ko noh?); parang they're not hoping anymore to become well and functional like other normal people. i pity them but i don't know...a little compassion must've built up within me in one way or another..i hope so. here i go again...LOOSENESS OF ASSOCIATION! lumalayo na ako sa thought ng paragraph ko. so anyway, we went to the chapel to accompany the patients to have their mass and novena. again, some of my colleagues (naks) asked me if i'm not a Catholic; obviously i'm not, i didn't cooperate with them while they're doing Our Father (kasi di ba it needed holding hands of the person beside you) and whenever a word was spoken and they have to do sign of the cross..i'm glad i'm standing out for righteousness! hindi naman sa nagmamayabang ako that i'm different but telling them what my belief is, really means much to me. i'm not even ashamed that i'm a Born Again Christian.
then in the afternoon, i was endorsed to other pavilion (Pav 3 - Acute Female Unit) because my C.S. will be attending an important occassion. so i''ll be assisting the therapists there in their cooking activity. Milky Oatmeal yung niluto nila. ang saya nga eh. kasi the steps are very simple tapos ang dami-dami ng patients kaya the work has to be divided that would accommodate all of them para may participation sila. after that, we were also asked to taste the food they prepared. at first you will think na icky kasi puro may skin disease and kahit na naghugas na sila ng kamay, medyo nagkakamot pa sila sa katawan nila...pero as you get used to it, malinis naman siya. kaya kumain ako!!! i ate oatmeal for the FIRST TIME!!! tama nga ang hinala ko--matabang. hehe, op korsh! ayun...
tapos....
tapos....
tapos....
kinilig nanaman ako.... hahaha!
pero another realization just came to my thoughts: don't be too obvious! my dad was already teasing me about him. ooops, i can't elaborate it here, someone might be able read this! ayokong magkasakit dahil nanaman sa crush..or love ba? nagkakaron ako ng psychosomatic manifestation whenever i'm in love or im totally into a guy. as in nagkakasakit ako. literally!
don't think about him too often! graduation is almost there....almost there. hay!
i want to do so many things after graduation -- get a boyfriend (JOKE!), basta get my license as a professional Occupational Therapist, become involved in every church activities especially in our youth organization, learn more about God and study driving and finally get a license as well for that!
ok. that's it. thoughts blocked about irrelevant things.
