i'm thinking too much and it's not gooooood. i just want to enjoy this great feeling everytime i have the chance to converse with him. i know God is taking care of my emotions and all i can say is that He's the best author of love stories. i lift up unto Him every kilig feeling that i experience with this person and ask incessantly to the Lord to control my thoughts since i kept on assuming about what's gonna happen next. ugh... i honestly dislike myself whenever i do that. may He take away my interest with this guy if he's not gonna be with me for the rest of my life.
sounds desperate? not naman siguro. it's just that i want to focus on my current situation and to things that would also be part of my future - career, ministry and grow deeper in the Lord. you might conclude that i'm being rigid with my lovelife. i'm not. i only need to stick on my mind that there are still so many things that await me. i admit that i am not yet ready to be in a relationship, to involve other person in my life where evidently, i haven't been equipped by the Lord...im not even halfway through it! well, i include him in my prayers, not for him to be my future partner - but as one of my dearest friends.
that person has really made a huge contribution on where i am right now and be unto Jesus all the glory! God has used him to improve certain important areas in my life without him knowing it. the Lord definitely has His own way of changing his beloved children!
God is faithful and great.
