If it has to be that way, I just have to do it. I know it's for my own good. Subtly i've come to my own senses. thanks to one great person who i just had a serious talk with and considered as my big brother. Don't know kuya if you're reading this, but, i'm deeply grateful for the concern and love that you have extended to me since the year 90's.
The talk that we had sounded like as if i was in sheer desperation about something; which i'm sure won't happen because God will give me in His proper moment the right person with right intentions, has stability in life, has answered to God's calling, and of course...with same spiritual maturity as mine. Pero hindi pa ako totally matured ha..haven't reached that yet. Still enjoying the growth in God's love and grace! What I'm also implying is that, we don't have to attain a certain level of maturity because it's interesting & fun if both of you will grow together, hand-in-hand, both having the kind of longing, desire and fire to be more spiritual in the eyes of God.
wouldn't it be really fun to experience that?!
so i decided from this day, i won't be too much in communication with that person--probably lessen it and make my attention equal to each member of our youth. i'll still keep in touch but as far as the Enemy is concerned, being very close to him wouldn't be advisable. unknowingly temptations arise and sooner or later that in just a sudden move, everything will change that might make us turn away from God. I don't want that thing to happen. I want him to do what God wants him to do, so as well with mine.
I'm not in a rush or anything...now i've truly come to my senses. I still like him, but i just gotta lift unto God the rest of my feelings. The ONE will come in God's mysterious way. Can't wait!
