maiba lang tayo ng blog entry...
nakita ko lang ang mga friendster accounts ng dalawang tao na kabilang sa "bad part" of my life. di ko na sila nakakausap ngayon. yung isa ka-friendster ko, yung isa naman...na-tripan ko lang hanapin sa friendster dahil unique ang name niya. hmmm...lately i've been fond to unique names...weird..(",)
oh well...they're both happy with the persons they're with and i feel the same way for them. sana yun na ang binigay nga ni Lord for them para di na sila ma-depress at magdrama pa.
hold on...am i really happy for them? i mean, for the satisfaction that they have right now in that certain area of their lives?
sure.
i guess there's a little prick that impinges my heart whenever i contemplate on that "little white spot" of mine. nagmamadali ba ako? hindi...oo...hindi...i really don't know... ayokong magmadali kasi hindi yun ang perfect will ni Lord. maghihintay lang naman ako eh. i can feel (sana tama itong feeling na to) that i'm not bound to blessed singleness. our youth pastor cannot even imagine me growing old without a life partner! haha! Amen to that!Ü
i'm scared of missing the opportunity of meeting the person hand-picked by the Lord just because i feel that this certain person is growing on me already. i can't see myself in the future being with someone other than him. pathetic?! by God's grace i'm able to resist the shackles of worldly wisdom about this matter or else, i'm gonna be locked with that ungodly perspective and my heart could turn away from the presence of the Lord.
right now, i just keep my circle of friendship open and not too much focused with that spot. i believe God wants me to learn some points and acquire the character that He has been teaching me for the past months in order to mature; then probably He can readily introduce me to the one that He's been planning for me to be with for the rest of my life. siyempre di naman kailangan ma-perfect ko muna lahat ng character ng Christ-likeness..probably the basics of being a noble woman of the Lord, tapos saka ire-reveal sakin ni Lord yun.
haha, sorry guys...nagmumuni-muni lang. God is currently teaching me to look at the bigger picture, not just on that little white spot.
