"Physical Medicine and Rehab good morning! this is dianne, how may i help you?"
hehe...hanggang kailan ko kaya ito sasabihin no? di naman sa nagsasawa ako but i was just thinking about how long will the Lord place me on my present work.
last thursday, i received a letter of authorization to have my medical check-up and drug testing because my contract's gonna be extended. i'm now on a probationary position, and God knows if He'll allow me to be a regular employee at the hospital. Glory to God and praise His Name forever and ever coz He favored my desire to stay longer at my work.
and here's the clincher: dad told me i must learn standing up on my own! waaahh! all my personal needs, dapat galing na from my own pocket (which happens to look very small and still not capable of offering a handful of financial assistance to my family). arghhh! time to go back to being makunat sa pera. yan kasi ang image ko nung high school, na kung saan fanatic ako ng mga paluwagan at kung anu-ano pang pwedeng gawin makapag-hoard lang ng money. i remember one time puro 10 peso-bill yung wallet ko, as in mula pa nung elementary ako...nung high school ko lang na-start gastusin dahil sa FOOD!
kanina nga lang sa pagpapa-medical ko sa clinic, the money that i used to pay for the lab fee came from my own savings. huhu...wawa naman ako! feeling ko tuloy border ako sa bahay namin. pero sabi nga ng dad ko, dapat ngayon pa lang masanay na ako na nagba-budget.
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ok. bakit gloomy ang saturday ko? kasi ganto...
yun nga, i woke up with dysmennorhea. ansakit! tapos i gotta push myself to get up from my bed so i can submit to the clinic the yucky lab samples. happy naman ako kahit papano kasi di na ako kinakabahan pag may needle na ii-inject sakin :) yun nga lang, feeling ko maga yung cubital fossa ko kasi dun ako kinuhanan ng CBC.
pag-uwi ko pa sa bahay, ang sakit ng ulo ko. i tried sleeping on it for 30 minutes or so and i have to get up again to attend our youth gathering. yung isang side ng head ko masakit pa rin kaya i rested na lang at home. pero yun nga, nakokonsensya akong matulog lang kasi mom's doing the laundry. so my sister and i helped her finish the chore kaya medyo masakit pa rin ulo ko. madalas kasi tinatanggal ko yung eyeglasses ko, kaya nadadamay yung vision ko kaya nagli-lead sa headache. umalis pa kasi ako kanina to have a haircut (di na kasi ako mapakali sa buhok ko...ipapa-rebond ko to this month hopefully) eh nalimutan kong isuot eyeglasses ko.
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pangit talaga yung maging bum lalo na't nasa bahay lang at TV lang ikaw maghapon. it gets you blue and gloomy. it stirs up my emotions and i hate that kind of feeling everytime i watch romantic movies or tv series. especially this moment, im trying to get rid of my feelings for someone who's been captivating my heart for the past 2 years. oh well...ganun talaga eh. first things first and God is and will always be on my top priority.
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my, my. gusto ko na mag-sunday para celebration na ulit of God's love and faithfulness!
pero siyempre...the best kasi sa monday, wala akong pasok! start na ng monday day off ko and it'll last til august. ako na rin ang bagong in-patient queen sa OT department kaya toxic moments, here i come! haha!!!
