i had a great difficulty coping up with my struggles, teachings and the life itself without starting the week dedicated to the Lord - going to a church every Sunday. though being a regular church attendee won't get us to heaven, and only by accepting and living our lives as Christ as our personal Lord and Savior, it is crucial having a huge dose of complete praise and worship and a nutritional Word of God through our God-appointed leaders in church. parang nakakalanta talaga.
for so many times, others with valid reasons..my family and i weren't able to attend our sunday service and it's really proven that a Christian's week won't FEEL complete without it. especially for such a time as this, i'm the midst of storms and thunders and last sunday, i felt so down, i asked my parents to give me a piece of freedom to make a guilty absence from our sunday service. sure, they're not ok with it but later on i felt that i must open it up to my parents. they understood what and how im going through coz with my situation, they have definitely encountered that struggle lots of times. the only difference them and i had is that they were able to still stand as strong as an oak and didn't even consider having a one sunday "break". now i must say that on that particular aspect, i look up to my parents for being faithful and committed to the Lord.
with the weekend ready to greet me but this time with a cheerless face, i have to admit i miss our church. mahirap mag-backslide. nakakatakot. ayokong maging tuluy-tuloy to kasi who knows when will the Lord come back? seek Him while HE MAY BE FOUND. time will come that when we think we WANT to change, it could be the moment that the Lord won't be hearing your small voice anymore...i don't wanna wait for the day when it will be all too late to lift our cries that would appear practically meaningless before His Throne.
i blotted my journal not because i had already overcome whatever i have blabbered just now or out of exasperation, but to share this with all of you guys that i am presently walking through the path of being broken, afflicted, and polished to be more like the Lord and shine His glory to the people around me.
