it's been 2 weeks since we had our interesting pre-mock boards at the review center. i can say that many things have changed and new priorities were set - fulfill what i really want to achieve in life following what God has purposed in me. i longed for this kind of stress, a healthy one, and i indeed got what i asked for...ayan tuloy. pero ayos lang. it was very tiring though most of the time i wake up late coz our class are usually scheduled in the afternoon...mentally tiring as a matter of fact. my communication and involvement with church activities have lessened; i miss them already. i miss hanging out without nothing much to think about. so far, yun pa lang yung mga bagay na napansin kong malaki ang impact sa akin.
once in a while, i needed to be refocused so as to get serious again with my current goal - and that is to finish the board exam with flying colors. hmmm, i don't know with you people, but, i guess i'm still in the adjustment phase wherein i had to manage my time well in terms of......aha! like this one, blogging, surfing, watching tv. actually, my tv viewing has reduced a bit, di ko na napapanood yung mga shows that i religiously used to watch (whatever happened to clark in smallville?!!).
one thing that must always be plugged in my memory is the other word for DISCIPLINE. according to one of our lecturers, it is synonymous with CONSISTENCY. give it a thought guys. what d'ya think, isn't it true? you can resist yourself from watching tv or surfing the net but c'mon, it takes a huge dose of consistency so it won't defeat the definition of discipline. i do need a gigantic amount of discipline!!! that's something i lack during my school days...and now i'm on my final phase of this "pagsusunog ng kilay" roller coaster ride, i think kailangan ko na 'tong panindigan. pramis.
man, i get tired easily! naninibago lang siguro katawan ko. my dad's been telling me not to attend muna other activities that are church-related. di ko kayang i-let go. number 1, most sundays i'm not that available to attend our service and so i tend to miss the opportunity to be fed of God's Word. and number 2, dun sa ibang activities na lang ako nakakabawi. say for example yung youth leaders monday night out. whenever we have praise & worship, dun lang ako bumabawi kasi nga i wasn't around during the sunday service. and lastly the music practice every saturday night. i CANNOT obliterate that in my list...nah-uh. music for the Lord is my passion, and that will be the only time where i can mingle with my friends and sing for my Father with other people who also have the burning desire to serve Him through music.
so there. grievances ba ito? hindi naman. i am enjoying my review classes BIG TIME. the lecturers make every topic to be worth listening to, and easy to be absorbed. siyempre, dapat board-sensitive ang outline. i'm having fun, but i gotta make it more interesting everytime i step my foot inside my room, flip the pages of my notebook, and train myself to answer the questionnaires from my reviewer books.
"My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart,
and my portion for ever."
Psalms 73:26 (KJV)
