it's a sunday afternoon, about to embark on its beautiful sunset, when i got a text from the review center. our classes won't start til nov 10!!! a tad of frustration has beset me...lasted for about 30 minutes. i've been craving for a more structured lifestyle these past months and the day that i've been waiting for to happen, has even become the most distant thing to ensue.
after reading that text message, i read the other pending texts that i got from a couple of my classmates. i can really sense the intensity of their rage and disappointment, and i cannot blame them. we all felt like we might suffer in catching up and comprehending every topic that needs to be discussed, especially that it's a 2.5 weeks delay from the original date that they have declared. some called the center and got an earful. some texted voicing out every bit of their anger towards them. in my case, i decided to text them and told them that we might have difficulty in tackling all the needed topics, since christmas vacation is gonna happen anytime soon once again. they assured me that it won't happen to us. our adviser will take of it. *sigh* they better make sure of that!
when i broke the news to my parents, they didn't react the way i depicted it on my imagination. they were calm and took it lightly. mom kept on telling me that it happened for a reason. i kept on whining kasi that super tagal ng delay....lugi kami...and all that jazz. actually, there's wisdom when my mom told me that simple statement. i believe God designed it to happen. it definitely had its reason!
this week, i'm busy with church activities (which i love doing to the nth power!): Monday = Simchat Torah (last day of the Feast of Tabernacles in Israel); night of praise & worship Tuesday = Practice for Youth Jam (a city-wide, inter-church event wherein we're invited to be part of the praise and worship) = Birthday party of our youth member, we went there after the practice. got home around 1:00am. Wednesday = a homebody, wash clothes, TRY TO STUDY Thursday = possible day to practice for the Youth Jam on the next day Friday = Youth Jam @ 7pm, hopefully it'll turn out great by the grace of God. Saturday = film showing during our youth fellowship, practice for music Sunday = sunday service!!! do final arrangements & prepare clothes for youth retreat.
*next week* Monday til Wednesday = Youth Retreat
o di ba?! i'm sure it'll take a lot of energy to be wielded in order to execute these itinerary precisely and with coordination.
oh wait...come to think of it, what i just laid-out is purely structural, perfectly arranged. and as you can remember, this is what i wanted! haha! parang akong ewan. stress....good stress....oh yeah! maybe before i was thinking more of a mental stress...longing for it actually; imagine, i haven't used that part of my brain wherein complicated topics are being manipulated. i realized that the present ones needed more of my physical exertion.
"And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them." --- Romans 8:28
bad things invitably happen in our lives, but it is only God who can turn all the circumstances into something great. so my hope is in the Lord always, i know that He will never fail me.
