goodbye laid-back moments. goodbye happy-go-lucky gimiks with college friends. goodbye hours of daydreaming and think about nothing. goodbye midnight net surfing. goodbye hour-long conversations on the phone (unless necessary) goodbye spontaneous plans. goodbye hours of tv viewing.
goodbye...
for now.
the clock is ticking. it's like i'm gonna be receiving instructions from my bed not to lie on it for more than 7 hours. my study table is calling me home. ohhh, i feel relieved because i'm going to be back at my true self - the one that i have envisioned myself for several months now. recently, i'v turned on my laid-back nature and i'm pretty sure it worsened, too bad. 95% of the time i've been waking up past 10am; and 50% of the time waking up before 2pm. i also experienced having my sleeping cycle altered - catching 40 winks around 6am and disengaging from slumber by 2pm. with that notion, i still get 8 hours of sleep; but c'mon, it's not worth recommending for. it's like i was on the verge of system breakdown. i did not cope well with that proposed habit and so i went back to my old and more normal pattern of living. i cannot imagine myself i've thought about those weird stuffs. and though i was still able to do my house chores, i felt that i could've done much better things - that bites my conscience a bit.
a week before the review, my parents are starting to condition my lifestyle into a more purposeful and sensible one. they began instructing me (and hey, there's wisdom on it!) that i should be reassessing my priorities and responsibilities. it's gonna be difficult though, coz i probably won't be that too visible unlike the past months in our church activities. my commitment will always be the same to my ministry but i've already talked to my leaders and they told me that God knows my heart...He knows i must concentrate with my boards. one thing that must remain is my intimacy with the Lord. my class is only 1-5pm; i got lots of time to review at home and certainly there's an enough time to spend devotion with Him. there's no excuse for me to grow deeper in the Lord even if my schedule is gonna be hugely different from my bum days.
another phase...
another challenge...
another opportunity to be faithful and mature in the eyes of Christ.
