right now, i'm having some sort of two polarities of anxiety - excited about the once again get together of as many young people as we can gather & nervous because it's gonna be my 2nd time to lead a group. it's not that i don't wanna be given responsiblity but i know it's a certain deliberation that it will be a challenging role for me. *sigh* oh dear Lord, i won't be able to do this without Your wisdom and guidance.
one thing that i am positive about is that my groupmates are ain't boring. it's like they're joke machines and everytime you insert a coin in the slot, you cannot help but laugh heartily at their punchlines. hmmm, but with that in mind, i must be able to set a smooth boundary between the tolerable jokes and discussions & improper ones. sometimes i tend to forget the role that i must display and characters needed in order for me to become an effective youth leader because i act childishly and speak as if i'm not a 22 year old lady (uyyy, lady na! di halata). that i must stick into my awareness ALWAYS.
i pray that the songs i will be using to lead the young people to worship & be in the presence of the Lord are from the holy spirit and not by my own interest or desire.
