okie, nakasigaw na ako....sa isip. well, saka na lang. i just remembered, mabilis nerbyusin mommy ko baka ako pa maging cause ng early mortality niya. iba na to mga prends! aside from this stinkin' paperworks, i was blackmailed by our clinical supervisor to pass my pending Initial Evaluation wherein i was planning to pass pa on Monday na lang. parang nilubos ko na yung DMs (demerits) ko kasi supposedly that's due last Wednesday..kahapon. eh running DMs pa naman sa PCMC kaya padagdag ng padagdag mga make-up days ko...which turning out not good because my review for the boards will be affected and the sked will overlap since it should not be just an ordinary review dahil boards na yun...next year pa naman pero im considering the consequences ng panay DMs and lates ko.
so back to blackmailing topic. i passed this afternoon a Re-evaluation of my another patient and it was due last Monday but then again, andami kong ginawa and inasikaso, na-late tuloy ng pag-pass. so what my CS told me was that, if ever i'm gonna be able to pass my I.E. that i was thinking of passing on Monday, he'd get rid off my previous DMs. (+) RF daw ba ang gawin! (that meant positive reinforcement ha). eh di siyempre, kumagat ako sa pakanang iyon. and now, that has been added to my plan after doing my PNs (progress notes). well, mabait yung CS kong iyon in fairness coz he's really been patient and concerned for our welfare and knowledge about OT in Pediatric setting.
i know this will turn out to be one of the good things that has happened in my entire OT experience but as of now, i could not grasp that concept yet. yung parang pa-feel good para ganahan ako. pagod pa rin ako ngayon kahit anong sabihin niyo sa harap ko ngayon. PAGOD!!!
pero siguro nagtataka kayo nagkaka-time pa ako for this boring journal. aba, ewan ko na lang kung anong mangyayari sakin pag hindi ko ito binuhos sa salita!!! baka clinically dead nako niyan pag nagkataon dahil lahat ng sama ng loob ko at pagod, hindi ko nilalabas.
every moment in my life i always thank God for sustaining me all throughout my internship (siyempre hindi lang Siya ganito sakin ngayon lang...forever pa kaya!). He never fails to be faithful, gracious and merciful to me because ever since i entered 5th year, my Bible reading hasn't been that frequent. but the thing is, God is molding me spiritually and i'm glad that i'm becoming involved with some of His ministries for His glory. ibang usapan na yan kaya i'll be putting that as my next entry...maybe during the weekend, if i still got time.
FYI: di pa ako nakakapag-aral for our monthly Revalida exam and i seem like i didn't care anymore since there are other things behind my mind that keeps on piling up para asikasuhin ko. EWAN KO NA LANG.
basta there's one thing that i could only say right now. as in now na -- i love my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ and i know He'll never leave me or forsake me. He'll give me unending strength , knowledge and wisdom and He'll continue to use me for His majesty and glory.
ANG BAIT TALAGA NI LORD SA BUHAY KO.