Prophet by Frank Peretti
im currently reading this book wherein my friend, arra, lent to me since according to her, it's very..very...interesting. this is the week that i can totally be focused on reading a book for leisure. gotta break from studying textbooks and notes for my orals! i missed relaxing and exploring things using my imagination. i've done that since i was in high school, when Sweet Valley High and University were sooooo in. even though im still embarking on this novel, i can tell that in every chapter, the story gets really tasty.... ;)
gotta make a review after reading it. hopefully next week, i'll be able to finish it. i am definitely challenged to read it because the font size is like 10, has more or less 30 lines per page, with 416 pages.
God's servant blogged @ | 11:39 PM
What am i doing???!!!! I should be having my make-up duty at National Center for Mental Health. i actually want to finish my make-up days in mental ASAP so that before i have my 1 month extension at a pedia setting, a SPED school, i am relaxed and free from any pressures...before i study once again the topics for my July orals.
yeah, i hesitated to mention last week that my last topic during my triple orals sucked. it's such a waste that i messed up, last topic na yun eh. gosh....it's weird. don't want to further talk about it. i really thank God for comforting me with His promises and Word from the Bible. i pray that He will soon reveal to me the purpose of my situation right now.
so i was thinking, what in the world will i do between the months of July and November? 'coz i'll be taking the February boards and im not sure if the review will start on either nov or dec. sure, dad's been dying to enroll me for driving lessons so that i'll be able to bring and fetch my sister from school at Katipunan. my parents are really busy with our business and it will be an additional load if they will also be the ones to take care of that matter. that would be cool...pick up my sister, then we'll go somehwere....wahaha! BI ako sa kapatid ko!!!! oo nga pala, i cannot do stuffs such as that and go shopping kasi wala pa pala akong job. except if some people will hire me for private practice considering that i still haven't taken the boards. may magtitiwala kaya sakin ng ganun ka-laki?
listenin' right now to RnB praise songs. very awesome! i never thought that such common songs as "I love to be in Your presence" and "Lord I Offer" can be so different from what i usually listen to yet it brings sweet aroma to God's throne!
around 7pm i'll be going to church to attend leadership training. my schedule is soooooo lax ever since i had my orals last tuesday. ok lang, masasanay rin ako. imagine, i've been toxic and always pressured every since i stepped into high school.
im really glad a couple of people have complimented me that i've become slimmer. wushu!!!!! yehey!!! naging baboy ba naman ako nung nasa bulacan ako eh. i was a bit surprised, actually.
that's it! tomorrow, promise na talaga, i'll drag myself from my bed and once and for all, deal with my make-up at mental!
God's servant blogged @ | 3:35 PM
got this from a bulletin post of my best friend, bes cni :)
thanks bes! i really like this message...especially that last night, i just realized that i should let go of someone. he made an impact in my life, he didn't know that through his actions helped me rise above my struggles...thank God that i have crossed paths with him. even for a brief moment that i've spent time with him, he made me realize (and again, without him knowing it...galing niya noh?) things that i should be doing for eternity.
but still...some things just come to an end inevitably. so many reasons can be a possibility why it'd happen, regrets might once in a while cross my mind, feel pity about what i've felt about him for the past months, but......i guess im gonna be ok with it.
time to move on...and again, i thank my best friend for giving me this piece of encouragement. hope you enjoy this one guys.
"finding the right person is very hard & very wrong.. it is best to be the right person for the one you love & start. from there you'll always end up disappointed when you set standards & define a right person for you and don't rush things coz somewhere, somehow God is preparing somebody for you."
Don't be in a hurry to get into a relationship bcoz you can never find love if you insist that you are already into it.
Try to find time to really understand your real feelings, to know who you really are, & what you really want in a relationship.
You're right, there's no such thing as a perfect relationship, but there's a compatible partnership that goes along with. If you already know that you're too big to fit into a small sized T-shirts, don't give it a try, you'll pretending you still have the same feelings. It's really hard to say goodbye though, but you can't make it any better by just pretending you still have the same feelings. Try to let go & give yourself a chance to live life to the fullest, give your heart a much needed attention, then you will find that you have made the right decision & you made it all by yourself.
We call it love when we can't leave someone & see them crying as we try to let go. We are wrong it's just a pity. We call it love when were to attached & think that losing the one we love will somehow make us weak & unable to face the storms of life, We misunderstood! Its just that were too dependent on them! We call it love when we give our whole life to them; the wholeness of us imagined that if they leave no one would accept us & our past. We are mistaken! Its just insecurity!
But no matter what the destination is the truth still remains that love isn't something you can buy or beg, it is real & existing, you can't touch it but you can feel it in your heart, you can't find it, but it will knock when you least expect it to come, it can make you the happiest soul in heaven but don't forget that it can also make you the most miserable person in the whole galaxy..
God's servant blogged @ | 5:18 PM
you won't believe the text message i received just after writing my blog yesterday!
ok, here's what happened:
i had my 3-hour nap from 4-7pm since obviously, i got tired from going to UST with that boiling temperature. prior to closing of my eyelids, i texted the doctor if he has any available date within this month for my orals. as soon as i woke up, i checked my cellphone...still no text. i was really urged to miss a call in his phone to know if it's turned on or he went on a vacation whatsoever. i texted my classmate to seek for an opinion on what to do. she agreed with me to check his phone because of its mere essence - if i should have my orals or not within May. voila, his phone rang. so he's using it. i then sent the text message that i did earlier, to make sure that he gets it. i was worried 'coz he could get irritated, baka kung ano pa gawin nun. pero sana wag naman...kinabukasan ko nakasalalay dun!
while i was on the process of thinking whether he received my text or not, suddenly my cellphone caught my attention---1 text message received! ahhhh!!! this could be it! i first read the name of the sender to lessen my anxiety. it was my professor. she told me this (nabura ko kaagad yung text sa sobrang kaba but here's the gist), "at last! nag-reply na rin siya. you can have your orals on May _ _, 8am. sana handa ka na. Ü see you!" sorry guys, i have to keep the date in private. maarte na sa maarte, ayoko lang masyadong maging big fuss. hope you guys would pray for me instead to reduce the intermittent stimulation of the butterflies in my stomach.
i just pray to God that i could pass this orals for me to be able to attend the evening class of the boards review. para makaabot ng July. i know the Lord sees my heart, my desire and my plan.
i pray that all my requests be entirely known unto Him and grant it. may i submit wholeheartedly to His only will. God bless y'all bloggahs!!!
God's servant blogged @ | 6:56 PM
aloha!
based on my recent post on the tagboard, im not so sure if the temperature today actually reached 42.2ºC; but guys, if you've been out today, it's like you've been drained and fried under the striking heat of the sun.
ANG INITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
around 10:30am, i went to UST with my sister to submit my make-up slip from the hospital i recently had my make-up, PCMC; ask for a new make-up slip for NCMH, then finally have my make-up at UST-CC scheduled (monday & wednesday). aren't you noticing anything? this paragraph contained 80% of the time the word MAKE-UP. well...the latter part of my college life revolved and still revolves on that single word. that was the reason why i wasn't able to march. why i'm still dragging myself from the bed to go to the hospitals that i had lates and absences / deficiencies with during my previous rotation. why i'm disappointed for not being able to join my batchmates for the July boards...not yet.
regrets...regrets...regrets...
it's very difficult to explain to you guys about the system of our college...the "you must do this and that" and the "do's and don'ts". i exceeded the number of allowed lates and absences and though i can make-up for those days, my effort isn't still adequate for me to have my orals and march on time. this may, patapos na ako sa make-ups ko. i am looking forward to having my orals this may and if God willing, makahabol ako sa review. i am planning to enroll for OT Batch but since the morning class has started, i'll be attending the evening class temporarily until i can go with my OT batchmates in the morning. hindi pa kasi nagte-text yung doctor. siya na lang yung hinihintay kasi. my prof even gave me his cel# para ako na mismo ang magpa-sked kung magrereply sakin. pag may load na ako mamaya, siguro text ko na siya.
i cannot say that im fully prepared...because i decided not to study all topics. though i will be reading most of it but yung todo career sa pag-aaral sa lahat, nah-uh. kaya ko lang naman gusto na makapag-orals para matapos na yung sobrang anticipation and agony. summertime na and here i am, nilalamig sa kaba for my orals. sa ngayon, ang iniisip ko, mas nakakakaba ang orals ko kesa sa boards. because sa boards, it's a written exam, i dn't have to be rattled with speaking in front of people. yun nga lang, lisensya naman ang end goal.
but then my dad told me, i shouldn't be pushing myself too hard on my orals just to make it for the july boards. if the doctor isn't available this month, they're fine with it; as long as it won't sacrifice my board exam and of course my future profession. i am in deep desire to work asap...i wanna help my parents with our expenses here at home and help them save time by taking care of my sister especially that school's starting anytime soon.
God has promised me that i will be able to graduate this year and im sure i'm definitely gonna make it by His grace and mercy.
God's servant blogged @ | 2:52 PM
im back!
Writing a blog after my orals would probably cause me some serious emotional ailment if all the things that I wanted to express will be in suspension...since I haven’t had my orals yet because the doctor in my panel is not available. For the past week, ive been opening the "compose" page of my blog and when I had the opportunity to spill it all out, my mind just gets stuck and blank until I finally grasped upon my mouse and decided to click the exit icon. Perhaps I was tired these past few days because I’ve been out of our home most of the day---make-up at hospitals then in the evening, practice for tomorrow's Night of Worship for our church's youth. I haven’t been finishing a new topic for my orals though im really workin' on it. Even if im not loaded with patients in the hospital (since there are regular interns already...ahem...feeling!), I then compensate my lack of sleep from last night in the interns' room. Yun nga lang, dapat wag magpahalata...demerits yun! Weve been warned though not to, but...it's very difficult to keep your eyelids open if you feel terribly sleepy...even if you don't want to. I honestly desire to read the book that I bring in the hospital to kill time, but there's nothing you can do with the call of forty winks. Haha!
Ok, enough of my sleepiness. I wanna tell you guys about what happened to me this afternoon in the hospital. It was 3:00 pm, and some of my co-make-uppers decided to have a break. Wala eh, pagod...kakatunganga at magbutas ng upuan! After checking out the food in the first cafeteria that we visited and found out that nothing in the items caught my attention to purchase it, I told them that ill be going to the hospital canteen. Mmmm....hotdogs! smokey's would be nice to silence my troubled stomach. The thing is, when I arrived, only a doctor waiting for the smokey's vendor was there. I asked at the alongside counter of viands regarding the whereabouts of the vendor...she'll be returning in a moment, just peed.
My friends also went in that place after buying foods from cafeteria and joined me in waiting for the vendor. As soon as she arrived, I immediately asked her, "miss, may chicken hotdog pa ba kayo?" "Wala eh." Oh. So I scanned the menu once again to look for alternative food to munch on. As I was thinking hard which to order, the doctor approached me, "excuse me miss." "yes?" "sana naman kung sino yung nauna."
Nag-init ang ulo ko. Literally, the hot temper quickly went up to my head and I didn't know how to react then so I just simply said, "nagtatanong lang naman ako eh."
OO! I said that well...without respect. I was wrong with how I said it. Pero isipin niyo na lang, naka-ngiti pa siya but she definitely seemed to be sarcastic when she told me that. After saying that, I was thinking of storming out of the canteen; but I thought of satisfying my hunger more than giving focus on the current situation. Haha! Gutom eh. Hindi na ako nagsalita after. I just waited for the doctor to finally pay for her hotdog and see her graceful exit. We all reacted thereafter, naturally. The vendor asked me, "Galit ba un?" "Ewan ko dun. Nagtatanong lang naman ako eh." Masyado lang niyang inunahan ang pangyayari...at baka um-order ako before her.
What I was pointing out is that she should've been considered my statement and perceived well what I meant about that. Natatakot siguro siyang maubusan. But my friend told me that there were hotdogs enough to sell. Akala siguro niya lahat kami bibili. Returning to the interns' room after that incident made me recall more if I should've done it otherwise (like, shut my mouth and don't mind her) or still do the same thing but with respect.
Hindi porque she has a higher attainment of education doesn't mean she can look down and be sarcastic on interns like us. That doctor must learn that not all people like us can be treated in that manner.
Ho ho ho. That was one short irritating scene! Sorry if I am too irrational right now. My mom agreed with me but yun nga, dapat sinabi ko ng mas maayos.
Appropriate title: "HOTDOG KO DOC!"
(tnx irmatoots for the suggested title)
God's servant blogged @ | 11:47 PM
