Y do i have to suffer from what i am feeling right now?
Y is my brain being overwhelmed with so many random thoughts?
Y am i getting queasy right this second?
Y am i thinking about that stuff?
ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*breathe in ... breathe out ... *
ohhh...that stuff...i just have to divert my thoughts about that stuff...haha. confused, people? sorry ha. di lang talaga ako mapakali ngayon eh.
everything right now should be simple but im the one who's making it more complicated.
wala lang. napapag-isip ako sa bagay na yun na di naman dapat isipin. probably this is the effect of after-school phase...no job, no earnings, no activities, being included (i pray!) in the Feb boards na super tagal pa nun, and being in the waiting list to get over and done with my orals.
hmmmmph...i think i better go now...wala na akong maaasahan sa mga oras na to kundi makakuha ng tulog. as if i EVER need one!
tomorrow's another busy day. it's saturday and i love it 'coz i'm gonna be spending my whole day at church...i just hope something great's gonna happen and that God will work in our midst.
'til next entry guys. God bless! have a fruitful weekend!
oh wow!
the sportsfest concluded with such a surprise.
tons of things happened and most of the time, the best stuffs comes at the latter part of the story. hmmm, and i think it was proven perfectly - most especially i know that the Lord has vindicated what was in my heart. it's very difficult for my position to divulge specifically how i actually received God's teaching at certain areas of our church event since it involved serious emotions and inevitably, i will be reiterating the situations (like i used to do in posting here before) that would relive my negative sentiments. ugh, enough of this explanation! let's just get it on with my point.
daming che-che-bo-re-che. hala, sisimulan ko na!
being a team leader in one of the 6 groups during our church sportsfest, well...it's no laid-back job. realizing that we instantly got less than 5% manpower (meaning literally, since we only have one 13-year old guy member), thoughts start clashing through my mind about how we're gonna push our team to a strong one. c'mon let's face it ladies, men have more edge when it comes to sports and games - may it be physical- or mind-wise. all members are toxicated with their respective careers and chores and we had a difficulty meeting halfway for us to be able to come up with a day and time to practice for cheering and song competition. if my memory serves me correctly, we only practised as a complete group twice.
God has definitely has His own way of putting things in order. He was able to comfort me and assure me with His Words that as long as we did our very best, we'll be fine. we're not seeking of men's approval anyway, we just look up unto God.
Patience is the number one character that the Lord has been trying to build in my now-growing spiritual life. my family can undoubtedly atest to that! ha! i am always hot-tempered. *yeah, it's i am, not i was.* musn't fret, God and I are working on this area step by step; and i am pretty sure it has taken its first step couple of weeks back. gotta tell ya, it's very, very difficult knowing my mataray attitude.
our sportsfest is a great opportunity to get to know other members of our church. another thing is that i get to bond and establish friendships with other people that i usually don't relate to, like, the people who are not within my age bracket or generation. especially that im involved and actively participating with few ministries of our church, i should widen my knowledge about the different perspectives/character of others. this is a good way for God to break, teach, and build me.
all in all, i just want to give back all the praises, honor and glory unto the Lord Jesus Christ. it was an amazing experience, ika nga sa mga reality tv shows. my being emotional has brought a lot out of me. wow.
'til next church sportsfest. God bless y'all.
