Friday, December 29, 2006
got nothing to say actually. oh, here's one - MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! :)
my Christmas week was sort of a bum coz first, i wasn't able to join the Youth Revive Camp from 26-29. i could've endured the lonesome feeling if there were church activities; but then again, it's Christmas, and everyone's on a break now. everything will resume next year. bummer.
so after work i immediately go home and feel alone - that's the second point. my mom and my sister stayed in the province to be with my lola and help her survive Christmas without missing much our lolo...if in any way THAT could be possible. i know there are lots of house chores to be done and i guess that's one of the reasons why the Lord didn't let me join the youth camp - to get domesticated and have a more personal contemplation on things that needed to be focused on. in some ways i have seen going home straight from work an advantage coz i was able to wash my uniform early and route my hands back on the kitchen area to cook meals. i can say i've done a satisfactory job in handling those chores. one thing that needs my dire attention is my bedroom. i'm gonna need my sister's cooperation since we share that bedroom, plus we have to clean together the bookshelf since both our stuffs are stuck there. before during my college break, i get to clean our room, spick-and-span. i even endured my dust allergies just to be over and done with all the dirty work so i can sleep soundly at night. ohhhhh, i miss that. hmmm...gotta do that on............my first saturday off? sure. hope so. after all, our youth fellowship won't be starting til the 13th. =)
what else do i need to point out? there must be a third point. wag na lang. i decided to just keep it to myself. well i never kept it to myself; my dad and Lord Jesus know what it is. let's just leave it at that, alright?
to tell you honestly, i feel envious and ecstatic to the ones who were able to attend the youth camp. all throughout the camp, i've been texting my churchmate and asked her from time to time what's going on or what the Lord has done on that particular day. i always do this daydreaming as to what they're doing that moment, and so on. and whenever i do that, i feel envious. for the ecstatic part, i'm truly glad that the young people were able to experience His presence in almost every part of the program - sessions, praise and worship, and even during the games. it's not that i'm saying i'm already past that kind of encournter with the Lord but my heart's desire is for the young people to know Him and dig deeper in His Word; to know His desire for their lives, walking with fear of the Lord.
uulitin ko pa: i feel bad wala ako dun. of course every camp or gathering bears a theme and every theme holds a great anointing because that's what the Lord spoke to the leaders organizing that event. ganda as always ng theme of this year's youth camp: Walking Circumspectly, Living in Purity. not only the young ones would need that, and not only it tackles about love. sure, that's one of the main topics needed to be discussed but it really encompasses a very huge issue. being pure, holy, and acceptable before the Lord...blameless and without wrinkle should we desire...long for. as we walk in our daily journey as His soldier, we would have to look closely every road that we pass through and see to it if we should be taking that way or not.
ayayay....mahaba-haba itong usapin but i will not keep you bored since this is getting long already. chat na lang tayo or email mo ako if you are still undecided of the REAL truth. pero here's a teaser muna: JESUS is the ONLY WAY to heaven.
God bless and have a wonderful holiday!
*trip kong ilagay din dito ang ilan sa mga new year's resolutions ko...wala lang, para maki-uso and para tignan ko kung pwede kong gawing totohanan ang mga yun ;p
God's servant blogged @ | 10:59 PM
Sunday, December 17, 2006
PRAYER & PROPHECY during the GIFT concert
"And I pray Lord for these young people who led us to worship You tonight. I pray O God that they will be worshippers of You. Lord they will not be performers O God on the stage, on the platform but they will be worshippers of You, O God. For God this is just the beginning O Lord of something great that You're going to do in their lives O Lord God...that from out of this place You shall send them out, O God, to touch the lives of young and old O God; hear the Word of the Lord; for God shall raise men to touch the hearts of people and you shall sing the song of the Lord for if you honor that song of the Lord you shall compose melodies, you shall compose songs, lyrics that will touch the hearts even in great peoples of all, yes, for God shall raise you up if you shall remain humble in the sight of the Lord you shall sing before crowds of people, even hundreds and thousands of people, yea, humble yourselves before the Lord your God, and He shall lift you up and you shall be a channel of God's blessing, of salvation, of healing, of anointings..."
---> Hallelujah! blessed be the Name of the Lord our God!!!
God's servant blogged @ | 1:01 AM
Thursday, December 07, 2006
kaya siguro hindi pa ako mapayagan ni Lord na mag-bible school ako kasi ang dami pa rin na unseen clutters sa buhay ko at nahihirapan akong walisin. nagiging white elephant na kasi kaya parang feeling ko part na siya ng buhay ko pero di naman pala dapat....
to better picture what i'm about to say, gagawan natin ng konting modification:
tipong ni-remind ako ng landlady na ayus-ayusin ko ung tinitirhan ko dahil darating yung talagang may-ari nung nirerentang bahay kong yun. tapos ung landlady na yun, nakita niya naaaaaaaaaapakadami kong kalat pa pala. i kept on insisting that i'm satisfied with where they are now. pero yun nga, i need to remove them pa rin kasi it's not pleasing...it doesn't count in the standards of the owner. kung di ko yun aalisin kaagad, in a day or two pag nakita yun ng may-ari, sibak ako sa tinitirhan ko. i was already given a chance to do what's necessary, and yet i still inclined my ear to my very own lies.
ayokong dumating yung araw na mangyari pa yun. i love living within the Lord's presence and how He works in my life. obedience is better than sacrifice talaga. the other way around will never work. even if i keep on thinking that by doing this and that would glorify Him, pero kung ako mismo eh sa personal kong buhay di ko naman nagglorify si Lord, everything that i've done will be in vain.
yung mga simpleng bagay di ko pa maayos, yun nga...napaka-simple na lang yun gawin di ko pa magawa. how much more pag nabigyan na ako ng mas malaki at mahirap na responsibility, eh di wala na? malulunod na lang ako sa hiya kasi in the first place, God will never give me greater opportunities to mature kasi di ako maalis sa primary level.
i truly believe that God is a God of abundance, and with that, i know that it also encompasses the principle of giving us abounding grace and mercy as we get transformed into His likeness. mahirap, pero there's Someone greater who can carry us to sail through the hardships that we encounter.
i'll be overcoming this by His grace!
God's servant blogged @ | 10:05 PM
i'm getting psyched with what dad and i are gonna bond about this afternoon. i was shocked last monday when dad told me that on my day off, we're gonna go out on a "date" and have a little chit chat about everything. uh oh. is it what i think he's thinking? ugh. butterflies start to flap its wings, thus making my stomach get jittery and also as the day off approaches. and now, it has come to its appointed time. i was excited because that's the only moment when i can express to dad everything that i feel without getting the thought of being demeaned or intimidated. i guess dad already knows what i want to discuss with him. i'm really looking forward to this date with my father because i absolutely want to hear clearly what he thinks about certain things that concern my twenty-something life.
twenty-something. have i learned anything new and have i reached the maturity that my age demands for? with my chin raised (and pointed upwards, wag, exaggg naman! haha!) and carrying a bag of confidence, nope. not that close. on the latter phrase i'm not sure though if i have improved even for just an inch. probably, yes, on some areas, but on far more important ones, i have to say it's still a work in progress. i'm glad i'm seeing my effort and how i react on the progress that i mention here. i just really hope i'm taking a firm stand on that italiced word. =)
God's servant blogged @ | 12:50 AM
