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Thursday, August 26, 2004

Heto ako..basang-basa sa ulan!!!

i was freakin' out the whole time i was on my way home. i wanted to burst into anger and i would like to thank my kabarkada, gigi juan, for being understanding kasi she has been my shock absorber for all the angst, complains and frustration that i vented...pati na rin when i held her forearm so tight to release the pressure built up inside me. nainis talaga ako. sino ba naman ang may gusto na ma-salisihan? teka lang, hindi ako nasalisihan ng gamit sa bag or kung anuman ha. nagkasalisi kami ng parents ko when i was about to get home since our work at PCMC was decleared half-day d/t nonstop heavy rain with matching malakas na hanging Habagat. guys, all my life i've been hearing the word, Habagat...anubayun?!?

so here's the story. 3:00 in the morning i was awakened by the heavy downpour of the rain; that time i also thought it was already 6am since around 6:30pm, i had forty winks as soon as i stepped my foot at our home. pagising-gising ako actually. checkin' my cellphone for text messages. saw 1 missed call from someone. feeling my newly-acquired headache from too much sleeping but at the same, appreciating the comfy and cold weather. i thought i could do so many work yesterday after duty but just listening to the sound of the rain, makes my body sink back to my bed. after a couple of hours, i can still hear but this time the violent and windy sound of the driving rain. whatever. hindi daw typhoon kasi malakas lang ang hangin. i thought, may pasok pa ba pag ganito?! HELLO!!! wala namang pasyente pag ganito na ang panahon. fast forward. we received a text from our clinical supervisor. if we couldn't make it to go to PCMC, it's okay for us not to pursue the trip but God has been really faithful to us that i have the opportunity to be taken to the hospital by our van. so hinatid ako ni dad. we were kind of rushing na rin kasi medyo traffic though on time lang kami umalis. alam mo na, umuulan kasi. i timed in and what reflected to my DTR card is.....8:03am!!! kainis!!! 1/2 day make-up uli yan! over a week nako dito magmmake-up.

when i was about to leave the van, dad told me to call either at church or home if ever our work is gonna be suspended. so there. not to much my surprise, we were only 7 interns (in which 26 talaga kaming lahat OT&PT na yun sa munting Interns' Room). i thought, di naman na siguro kami immark ng late because of our effort and dedication (naks!) to report for duty. sana talaga. so we were so bored and laughed at each other's jokes. waiting our butts off for pxs. palakpakan nga daw namin yung pinaka-una. aba'y akalain mong meron?! astig. tiyaga nung nanay. pero buti na lang, for check-up lang daw sila. haaayyyy! so after time, mga 3 pxs dumating. yung mga PT, they treated their inpxs (in-patients). around 10:30, our CS told us half-day na nga but the thing is, the rain just kept on pouring friggin' hard...as if unending ang precipitation process!!! as soon as i heard the breaking news, i quickly pulled out my cel from my pocket and texted away my friends who i thought who can reach my dad and relay that he can fetch me by lunch. andaming nangyari. hanggang sa na-page na yung tatay ko sa Medical City dahil wala siyang cel na dala pati mom ko so i had no means of communication with 'em. to tell you guys, ang hirap ng ganun!

nga pala, the DTR cards were handed back to us by our CS and thankfully, they did not mark it as late or a 1/2 day make-up! wooohooooo!!!!

while waiting for dad and mom...since nakarating na sa kanila that i will wait for them...i asked 2 of my classmates/co-interns to stay with me and guaranteed that i will take them with our van the moment dad arrives.

after a few minutes, we thought of eating lunch at Ricamara..o di ba. suki namin na mura ang pagkain, lutong bahay and malinis pa....so far. haha! i guess we munched for about 45 minutes. i was so relax then that my sundo will get there after an hour pa. that time, lowbat na cel ko and i kept on turning it off to save battery even for just a tad of a bar na lang natitira. talagang malapit nang bumigay. eh nung paalis na kami, there were 2 missed calls from my uncle. what got into my head was, baka nagpapasabi sina mommy na andun na sila. so umalis na kami ad walked back to PCMC.

zippo.

mei you.

none.

wala.

WALA NA SILA!!! arrrggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! perhaps just a speck of my frustration still remains up to this second kasi andami kong efforts na ginawa just to reach them tapos eto lang makukuha ko?! kainis talaga!!! sobrang asar ako nun and napapangiti na lang mga kaibigan ko. we checked the parking area. wala. we scanned the lobby, wala pa rin! but one of the PT CS asked who among us is dianne. she relayed the news to me that a few minutes ago, dad and mom were there looking for me and even looked into the hospital canteen...nakitawag pa sa Rehab! ano ba ito, sabi ko sa sarili ko. after pacifying myself, i decided to go home with my friends. nag-MRT ako. well, mabilis naman ang biyahe and it's not that stressing kasi it's not rush hour and siksikan like canned fish is not necessary. 2pm pa naman kasi. just when i thought i was smoothly going home, here comes the rain again and began pouring down as if the clouds wanted the existing gremlins to make mass production and eat up the mankind. oo na, morbid na kung morbid. sorry. the good thing is, i was already at the Shaw Blvd, ready to cross the street and ride a tricycle. siguro di naman nagtagal kasi pina-tila ko ng konti ang ulan tapos tumawid nako. oh well.....

so natural, di ko na ikukwento ang nangyari dito sa bahay. all i wanted to do right now is to thank our Heavenly Father for protecting me and not letting me be splashed by the eeky flood from the transparent and clean canal ng mga kalsada. hehe. i thank God because htough i got soaked by that "rain" (grabe, hindi pa talaga typhoon tawag dun!), i was not able to catch colds.

ayun lang po. hope you found this entry a life lesson---COMMUNICATION is essentially needed sa anumang parte ng buhay natin. i was not able to disclose everything sa mga taong macocontact ng parents ko to reach me. ah ewan! hehe. sige.

till next entry my friends........ God bless y'all!

God's servant blogged @ | 8:45 AM

Thursday, August 19, 2004

SuNShiNE through my window... hehe

rainy day has indeed come upon our country and i heard that the name of the typhoon starts with the letter "L". when we had our quiz this afternoon and bonus questions began to pour down to compensate for the sure-ball mistakes in our last 20 case presentation-related questions, this was one of the things being asked..ang clue pa nga eh kapangalan ng isang ibon. nyak! i thought for a second or so and silently uttered, "lawin? hindi..names ng girls ang pinapangalan ngayon eh..uhh..lyra? may ibon bang ganon? yun na nga lang...." pero eventually sa sobrang takot kong mapahiya pag ichecheck na ng CS ko eh i opted to spunge what i just wrote..walang sense ang Lyra! well actually, til now i still don't have an idea what the name of the current typhoon is. when the papers were all submitted, mas yun pa yung prinoblema namin kesa sa mga, "uy, anong klaseng activity daw ba yung sa #2?" or "may sagot ka bang learned helplessness?" patawa rin eh noh? instead, most of the interns contested about their answers sa isa pang bonus question na, "what's the complete name of the Rehab Med Division Doctor here in PCMC" naririnig ko lang sila na nagsasabihan ng mga sagot na yan pero kasi i'm not the type of person who gabs much about the recent exam/quiz. parang kasi, wala nang magagawa..nasagutan ko na eh. another reason why i don't do that is i might hurt other people who also took the same exam who don't know the answer..baka sabihin pa mayabang ako.

THANK GOD I WAS ABLE TO ANSWER MOST OF THE QUESTIONS CORRECTLY.

i was really thankful to God for the past 4 days kasi He sort of let me rest though i am having my duty sa hospital at the same time. in one day, most of my patients were not able to come due to either acquired sickness or it was raining hard within their place kaya di sila nakakapunta. yesterday, i only had 3 patients in the morning and amazingly no patients in the afternoon. galing eh noh?! nakakagulat nga eh kasi that's not the trend the center has set with regards to patient load. heto pa--i surprisingly had only 1 "ONE, UNO, YI" as in ISANG...patient TODAY!!! haha! yun pa yung favorite ko. it's not that im whining but instead im just feeling blessed coz i was able to rest dahil last Friday, i didn't report for duty kasi hindi na kinaya ng katawan ko. parang my own system broke down literally and it wanted my higher brain functioning to decide on taking a rest and mark myself as absent for that petty day.

at bukas.....QUEZON CITY DAY!!! this is the time where i can fully commit my whole day in reviewing for our next monthly exam. to tell you, i didn't do good the last time. aaarrggghhhh! kaya i really needed to totally practice my time management (malamang for the 1st time..hehe) to make bawi for the lower-than-average scores during the past 5 exams. im not sure if i could say that it was also my fault and that i deserved obtaining that score kasi i only review during the week of our exam. eh ang daming coverage..so laging nasa windang mode ako. God will help me to concentrate and at the same time be inspired & delighted to do His promise and plan for me.

haaayyyy....at long last, i'll be able to sleep for 11 full hours (kasi it's 11pm and plan on waking up at around 10am tomorrow) without distress and feeling disturbed in my dreams. kasi ba naman, napapanaginipan ko pa rin PCMC during my 1st 2 weeks dun such as having scenes na i forgot my DTR card. grabe talaga yun. i was haunted up to my subconscious! tsk...tsk...

o sige na, gotta sleep na para ma-sulit ko yung buong 11 hours ko. i hope this sweet sleep would reduce the eye bags that has grown amass (over!) for the past 2 weeks. di na natuloy ang grad pic namin! pano na yan?!

God bless!!!

God's servant blogged @ | 2:15 PM

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

Imagining myself relaxing on this quiet, calm and breezy sunset

God's servant blogged @ | 11:35 PM

Friday, August 13, 2004

HORRIBLE!!! MADUGO NA ITO!!!

What the...??? This is by far my most toxic moment in my life. as in right now. now na. i feel like so much disturbed and though i have tried to organize earlier my "to to list", everything still seemed to be chaotic and falling out of place. parang di ko alam kung matatapos ba itong paghihirap na ito...i still cannot see or even take a glimpse of what's coming next after this rotation because of all these crazy paperworks and loads of patients that we have.

Tonight, i'm supposed to do more or less (siguro more...hehe!) 20 progress notes of my patients for the past 2 weeks. yihee...2 weeks na pala kami dito sa PCMC! kala ko 5 years na. nyahahahay! this time the true meaning of rotation has transpired within me -- pag-ikot ng mundong ginagalawan mo sa sobrang dami ng inaatupag mo. i guess i got the exact implication na. pwede palang literal ito. teka, sigaw lang muna ako dito sa bahay....let me just exhaust my weariness...

B L A N K . . . . .

okie, nakasigaw na ako....sa isip. well, saka na lang. i just remembered, mabilis nerbyusin mommy ko baka ako pa maging cause ng early mortality niya. iba na to mga prends! aside from this stinkin' paperworks, i was blackmailed by our clinical supervisor to pass my pending Initial Evaluation wherein i was planning to pass pa on Monday na lang. parang nilubos ko na yung DMs (demerits) ko kasi supposedly that's due last Wednesday..kahapon. eh running DMs pa naman sa PCMC kaya padagdag ng padagdag mga make-up days ko...which turning out not good because my review for the boards will be affected and the sked will overlap since it should not be just an ordinary review dahil boards na yun...next year pa naman pero im considering the consequences ng panay DMs and lates ko.

so back to blackmailing topic. i passed this afternoon a Re-evaluation of my another patient and it was due last Monday but then again, andami kong ginawa and inasikaso, na-late tuloy ng pag-pass. so what my CS told me was that, if ever i'm gonna be able to pass my I.E. that i was thinking of passing on Monday, he'd get rid off my previous DMs. (+) RF daw ba ang gawin! (that meant positive reinforcement ha). eh di siyempre, kumagat ako sa pakanang iyon. and now, that has been added to my plan after doing my PNs (progress notes). well, mabait yung CS kong iyon in fairness coz he's really been patient and concerned for our welfare and knowledge about OT in Pediatric setting.

i know this will turn out to be one of the good things that has happened in my entire OT experience but as of now, i could not grasp that concept yet. yung parang pa-feel good para ganahan ako. pagod pa rin ako ngayon kahit anong sabihin niyo sa harap ko ngayon. PAGOD!!!

pero siguro nagtataka kayo nagkaka-time pa ako for this boring journal. aba, ewan ko na lang kung anong mangyayari sakin pag hindi ko ito binuhos sa salita!!! baka clinically dead nako niyan pag nagkataon dahil lahat ng sama ng loob ko at pagod, hindi ko nilalabas.

every moment in my life i always thank God for sustaining me all throughout my internship (siyempre hindi lang Siya ganito sakin ngayon lang...forever pa kaya!). He never fails to be faithful, gracious and merciful to me because ever since i entered 5th year, my Bible reading hasn't been that frequent. but the thing is, God is molding me spiritually and i'm glad that i'm becoming involved with some of His ministries for His glory. ibang usapan na yan kaya i'll be putting that as my next entry...maybe during the weekend, if i still got time.

FYI: di pa ako nakakapag-aral for our monthly Revalida exam and i seem like i didn't care anymore since there are other things behind my mind that keeps on piling up para asikasuhin ko. EWAN KO NA LANG.
basta there's one thing that i could only say right now. as in now na -- i love my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ and i know He'll never leave me or forsake me. He'll give me unending strength , knowledge and wisdom and He'll continue to use me for His majesty and glory.

ANG BAIT TALAGA NI LORD SA BUHAY KO.

God's servant blogged @ | 11:10 AM

Monday, August 02, 2004

awryt, i think im settling as for the moment with the outcome of my blog..as a neophyte with all these overwhelming HTML codes and links.

hmmm...what else can i say? nothing actually. kaya walang silbi itong blog ko. haha! joke. oh, i guess this is a great time for telling you guys all about my blog. from the title head to its interesting contents. Yadda Yadda :: whoopsiedaisies!!! has no particular meaning at all for which it gives implication that all of my entries would be a concoction of my sentiments, it will be a den of my unfathomable and immeasurable love for our Lord and Savior, could be an outlet for my stress and tension from internship, and probably my frustration once in a while sa aking paglakbay sa buhay ko. i won't be limitng myself in using the English language since i opted my blog to speak whatever that comes out of my tabula rasa. gusto ko spontaneous para mas okay mabasa ng readers ko...kung meron man.

well, tomorrow i'm off to my 4th pit stop --- PHILIPPINE CHILDREN'S MEDICAL CENTER. im sure it will be a tough challenge for the whole course of my internship, but siyempre, God's steadfast guidance, protection, and wisdom will always be upon me as i leave and arrive my home. hindi lang naman sa rotation kong 'to, pero until i get my bachelor's degree...medyo di ko pa nga lang naaamoy ang langhap ng graduation pero i can alreayd see it from afar...this week, start na for our grad pic and nakakahiya mang aminin..excited na ako. yeeeeherssss!!!!

o siya..iwan ko muna ito at baka ma-addict na ako. i don't want to get late sa buong intenrship life ko...EVERRRRRRR!!! (hehe...sana...)

baboo!

God's servant blogged @ | 1:52 PM

Sunday, August 01, 2004

testing....testing....test mic.....

welcome guys to my blog. currently im on the verge of figuring out on how to make friggin' cool templates...this one's sooo boring and pale and i guess im gonna ask arra to rescue me from this continuous torment. di ko alam gagawin ko dito. matututo rin ako!

o sige na..i'll be adding more posts once i had this done and visit my next assignment in my internship. God bless you guys.

God's servant blogged @ | 3:49 PM