naiisip ko tuloy parang gusto ko na magwork abroad. ayokong mag-migrate dun. pero ayoko rin namang manirahan dun ng mag-isa at di kasama family ko. siyempre i would also want their lives taste how's it like to experience a better state of living in a welcoming foreign country. kaya ko lang naman naisip to kasi mami-miss ko yung family ng youth pastor namin if ever matutuloy silang mag-migrate and plant a church on that certain country. sa case ko, pwede akong mag-work dun or sa canada where my bestfriend lives in which i can land a job as an occupational therapist. kumbaga, i can work it out. siyempre, plano ko nanaman to and i gotta start seeking God if this is what He wills in my life.
yun nga, mag-iipon lang tapos balik na dito. sabi ko nga sa sarili ko, magma-migrate lang ako dun kung: (eto choices)
1. kasama ko family ko
2. i'm married and wanna establish our new life there; or...
3. dun ang mission field ko - kahit ba na single ako eh tapos biglang dun pala ako dadalhin ni Lord, of course i have to submit to His plan because i know it would radiate His glory and i believe He will beautifully fulfill His purpose in me :)
naisip ko lang...
God's servant blogged @ | 11:33 PM
nakakapagod pero masaya...super. i really thank the Lord for being so gracious to me for the past months coz i believe He's working in my life. i've always asked for joy in doing my work and i started experiencing that for a month already. all glory belongs to Him. hmmm, one factor could be my cute patient. haha! parang high school pero ganun eh. sayang, he had aneurysm and has manifestations of a stroke patient, hemiplegic tapos has dysarthritic speech pa. aside from those physical attributes, he also has an american accent coz he left pinas when he was in 1st grade, so talagang slang na siya. hay gwapo at ang bango pa nya! hahahahaha!!! *blushes* madalas nagiging reward ko yun pag siya na yung ititreat ko pag toxic yung mga patients ko before him. yun nga lang, hanggang crush lang yun. di kasi Christian. (yuck, seryoso daw ba ako?!) atsaka gusto daw niya 2 years older sa kanya (he's 25 by the way, guys...)...and he doesn't wanna get married, probably because of his present condition (awwww...wawa!).
so there. i'm having fun at work but my contract's gonna end by july 10th. my boss didn't mention about the security of my work; dapat kasi worth-it and nagkaron ng sense yung pagdagdag ng department ng new staff. additional item kasi ako, not a replacement; kaya the higher authorities would have to scrutinize if taking a new staff in is appropriate with the needs of the department. for now, i need that job; i hafta help my family. casual pa lang kasi ako and sana ma-promote ako to probi then eventually become a regular staff therapist. my sister's needs are increasing...not to mention she's graduating this school year and we have to save for her college requirements. let God's heartbeat be mine as well...
ayan nanaman itong bible school na desire ko. paminsan-minsan talaga, naeexcite ako kung ako na yung mag-eenroll dun. talagang dapat ready na ako and equipped to fulfill the Lord's higher calling for my life. sa ngayon, nagppray ako na sana i-honor ni Lord itong desire ko - that one day, God would confirm it to my parents and then i would receive their blessing so i can have myself enrolled at bible school. our church plans to have its local extension of the abovementioned bible school in antipolo and our pastor announced that probably it will hold evening classes. super natuwa ako nun kasi at least, pwedeng di na ako kailangan tumigil mag-work para magbible school. na-excite ako sobra! sabi ng pastor din namin, those who would want to enroll at the local extension of the bible school must accomplish certain lessons that the church has implemented for each church member. di lang daw basta-basta. sana isa ako sa makapag-enroll...next year ata daw ieestablish sa church namin yun eh. im so happy! basta God is hearing all my prayers...i must never cease doing it by faith!
so far, this is what's going on with my life right now.
*haha, natatawa ako pag naaalala ko yung cute patient ko...tinatagalog namin kasi he can understand filipino naman; minsan i talk to him in english para makapag-practice na rin ako. haha! slang na slang siya like, he pronounces KAIN as keyn; then TEKA as tika. hihihi... hay grabe....tapos araw-araw pa ang treatment ko sa kanya *kilig!*
God's servant blogged @ | 9:32 PM
yay, our television went down. yes, yes. the punctuation mark on the first sentence is a PERIOD. i miss surfing the channels and at the same time it's also a great opportunity that i can spend more time doing other things, let alone read the book of Acts. i love reading the life of Paul. in fact i just finished last month the book of Esther and Ruth. they definitely obeyed what was being asked of them to do; and though the end result wasn't as clear as it seems that moment, they were more than willing to follow the heart of the Lord for them...it resulted with something great and their lives just show us that obedience to God can take us to situations and higher calling. it lifts my spirit and continue this journey for the glory of the Lord. =)
my youth pastor always tells us, "ito na ang buhay na pinili natin..." boy i'm glad i chose this life! a life worth living and dying for to radiate the holiness and fullness of God.
God's servant blogged @ | 11:05 PM
I have to be honest. Being a Christian in a secular environment most of your time could really stretch out your determination on being like Christ. I would like to say that it is a struggle, but, I'd rather imply it to a more constructive term - let's just put it as challenging. I don't want to tell it to everyone in a negative way but it's a great experience for me that every single day of being crucified with the Lord, I encounter His love (inspite of my transgressions), grace (that still I can come before Him and serve Him in the best way I can), and mercy (still I can ask for His forgiveness no matter how wrong I've been in every skewed road I mistakenly took). Truly the Lord's glory is reflected in every step we take in our lives. I praise the Lord because He has refreshed my perspective that all these are not about us; it's about God alone. Yes, He supplies our needs (which we think is that for God to serve us; uh-oh, big mistake there guys) but it solely means that we are ought to give Him praise because He is worthy for all of His magnificent works and miracles throughout the generations. Most of the time we thank God because we benefited from those things/situations and not purely because His glory must be spoken and magnified - WE TEND TO BE TOO SELFISH! He didn't create these things for us; if He did, we should be appreciating right now the farthest corners of the universe and see EVERYTHING that God has formed. But you see guys, He's the only One who can see and gain pleasure from all these wonderful creations.
Got the picture? ;)
It should always be MORE OF GOD and less of us.
Remember, we're not created to be served and just receive everything that we need. It's the other way around - we're here to serve and live for the Lord inspite of what we have, what we are or where we are right now.
For I am crucified with Christ and yet I live
My life with Christ it lives within me
His Cross will never ask for more than I can give
For it’s not my strength but His
There’s no greater sacrifice
For I am crucified with Christ
And yet I live
I love living for the Lord because I know after surpassing every trial and every teaching, a Christ-like character is instilled within me. I'd never want to trade that opportunity with some worthless, earthly-bound, not eternally-invested living/emotions/things. I wanna reach the high standard that the Lord has set for each one of us so that we can become pure, holy and acceptable before His Throne. I pray that God would give me strength to endure this race and aim the highest calling that He has for me.
God's servant blogged @ | 10:22 PM
maiba lang tayo ng blog entry...
nakita ko lang ang mga friendster accounts ng dalawang tao na kabilang sa "bad part" of my life. di ko na sila nakakausap ngayon. yung isa ka-friendster ko, yung isa naman...na-tripan ko lang hanapin sa friendster dahil unique ang name niya. hmmm...lately i've been fond to unique names...weird..(",)
oh well...they're both happy with the persons they're with and i feel the same way for them. sana yun na ang binigay nga ni Lord for them para di na sila ma-depress at magdrama pa.
hold on...am i really happy for them? i mean, for the satisfaction that they have right now in that certain area of their lives?
sure.
i guess there's a little prick that impinges my heart whenever i contemplate on that "little white spot" of mine. nagmamadali ba ako? hindi...oo...hindi...i really don't know... ayokong magmadali kasi hindi yun ang perfect will ni Lord. maghihintay lang naman ako eh. i can feel (sana tama itong feeling na to) that i'm not bound to blessed singleness. our youth pastor cannot even imagine me growing old without a life partner! haha! Amen to that!Ü
i'm scared of missing the opportunity of meeting the person hand-picked by the Lord just because i feel that this certain person is growing on me already. i can't see myself in the future being with someone other than him. pathetic?! by God's grace i'm able to resist the shackles of worldly wisdom about this matter or else, i'm gonna be locked with that ungodly perspective and my heart could turn away from the presence of the Lord.
right now, i just keep my circle of friendship open and not too much focused with that spot. i believe God wants me to learn some points and acquire the character that He has been teaching me for the past months in order to mature; then probably He can readily introduce me to the one that He's been planning for me to be with for the rest of my life. siyempre di naman kailangan ma-perfect ko muna lahat ng character ng Christ-likeness..probably the basics of being a noble woman of the Lord, tapos saka ire-reveal sakin ni Lord yun.
haha, sorry guys...nagmumuni-muni lang. God is currently teaching me to look at the bigger picture, not just on that little white spot.
God's servant blogged @ | 10:58 PM
